The day we forgot our baby in the car
Due to the recent controversy in the news as well as such harsh comments, I feel like I need to share my story. I do understand that the man who left his child in the car on purpose was bad. Really bad. It was wrong, horrible, and definitely not something I can fathom. But for the one person who meant to do it, there are hundreds who did not. It’s that time of year. Bad things happen to good people, and let me make one thing clear… no matter how much you say that you could never forget – there is a possibility that it can happen to you.
A little preface to this story. We are what many would call attachment parents. We co-sleep, babywear, offer extended breastfeeding, cloth diaper, la la la.
It was just about this time two years ago. A very, very hot June day. We had already been to vacation in South Padre and back, and we had just closed on our new house.
Jett was about 8.5 months old at the time, and he was exclusively breastfed. We had recently found a pretty cool sippy cup that we decided to put water in to see if he would drink out of it, and for some reason, that day, he took to it and started drinking quite a bit of water.
We were in layover mode living with my parents until our house was ready to move in.
My inlaws came from about an hour and a half away to walk through our new house, and we were so excited about finishing with the renovations, showing them, and just seeing the house in general – without the realtor.
We had a minivan at the time, and Jett was rear-facing in a Britax. He had been fed before we left, so he fell asleep in the car. The other kiddos stayed back at my parents’ house. On the way to the house (which was a 5 minute drive), Andy and I talked about plans for the house, how excited we were, ripping out the old deck, the color of the walls, what we were going to eat for lunch, what his mom would think about the place… typical excitement.
The temperature was running anywhere from 100 to 105 degrees at the time (I only know because a thermometer pic just popped up on my Timehop yesterday or the day before for 107 degrees). When we arrived, they were already there, so we both jumped out of the van, greeted them, and made our way inside.
We didn’t have electricity or anything at the house at the time, so it was really, really hot in the house as well.
We walked through the entire house, looking at every door, every closet, every outlet, window, nook, cranny, and we even talked about what we’d put where and how we’d decorate. I can’t be fore sure how much time went by. I’m assuming anywhere from 15-25 minutes, but we made our way back to the living room, and we were standing around talking about the floors and how we’d set up the TV, when out of nowhere, I felt like I was missing something.
I looked around for a second, and the it hit me. THE BABY.
I turned to Andy and a little panicky asked “Where’s Jett?”
Now, when I say a little panicky, that’s because he wasn’t with me, but in that split second that my mind was trying to rationalize the situation, three scenarios went through my mind.
- We left him with my parents.
- Andy was holding him.
- We left him in the van.
My inlaws just thought that we left him with my parents. They had no idea he was in the car.
As it dawned on us that both of us thought the other was getting him out of the van, we all four darted out to the van.
Not really knowing how long we’d been inside and being VERY aware of how hot it was outside, that 10 seconds that it took to get out to the van was a nightmare. I had 1 million thoughts in that time. Will he be alive? How long does it take for a baby to die in a hot car? God please let him still be alive. How much pain is he in? How hot must it be in the van? Will he be breathing? God please comfort him. What does he think about his parents? This is possible the worst thing we could have ever done. How am I going to live with myself? And most of all… How did we forget?!
We have four kids. How does this happen to us?
When we opened the door, he was hot to the touch, sweaty, and his face and body were red. He barely opened his eyes and let out a whimper, barely moving. I unbuckled him, so thankful that he was still breathing. So thankful.
Andy immediately turned the van on to start up the A/C, because there was nowhere to go cool off, and I immediately nursed him. After about 5 minutes, his breathing was normal again, and after about 10 minutes he was cooled off and a little tired, but almost back to normal.
Thankfully, this horrible, horrible accident did not end in a tragedy for us. We know that God was looking out for him, and I’m convinced that giving him that cup of water helped keep him for going into a full out heat stroke during that time. God knew what he was doing, because grabbing it on the way out was just an afterthought, because I knew how hot it was going to be at the house.
Emotions were crazy. I felt sad. I felt blessed. I felt ashamed. I felt incompetent. I felt angry. I felt inadequate. I felt embarrassed. I felt like a horrible mother.
One thing that I can say is that neither Andy nor I blamed each other for what happened. Sure, he admitted that he assumed that I was getting him out, and I admitted that I assumed that he was getting him out.
Since that day, we’ve checked and double checked to make sure all of the kids are out of the car when we go in. There are even times that the sitter has Jett or my parents are watching him while I go visit a client, and I catch myself double checking to make sure he’s not in there. If he’s not with me in car, I always feel like I’m missing something.
I’m pretty sure this post will draw some kind of criticism, and I’m ok with that. I need my story to be out there. I need for people to know that it CAN happen to even the most attached parents. It CAN happen to you.
I know that some of you just don’t understand how someone can forget their child (especially the fourth child!), and I even have some very close friends who have said some pretty harsh things recently, and in the past, about parents who leave their kids in the car.
It has taken me two years to tell my story. I am the same person today that I was two years ago, and I’m the same person two years ago that I am today. The only difference is that I am a little more aware of the details in life.
All I can do is pray that you understand that it only takes a second and a redirected thought to change you for the rest of your life. Thankfully, mine has a happy ending. Sadly, most cases like this don’t, and it’s ok to be upset, hurt, and sad for the baby and family. I can honestly say that I will never judge a parent harshly for truly accidentally leaving their baby in the car. I hope you’ll think twice before you do, too.
Thank you for reading my story. Please feel free to share.
I am so glad you’ve shared your story. I believe it CAN happen to anyone and until everyone realizes that, it will just keep happening. We all need to be a little more aware and a lot more empathetic.
You’re so right. I remember Trisha asking why there hasn’t been something invented to keep it from happening. I’m sure there has, but people just don’t think it will happen to them.
There are a lot of things invented actually. I’ve been working on a post to share some of them.
I think it takes a lot to tell your story and I can only imagine how you must have felt. Though I have never been in this situation I do often find myself checking the back of my car even though my kids are 16-8 now. It is the sad stories in the news that make me more aware. I forget a lot of things, ask my husband he will agree, I am often hurried and forget this or that. I honestly can see how something like this would happen. I can see it in a father who’s routine is changed because one morning he has to take his child to school. We are creatures of habit. Just yesterday I passed the road to my new house because I was use to going to my old. I can DEFINITELY see how something like that would happen. It is so very sad when situations like this end in tragedy and my hearts go out to the parents and the poor babies. Hugs you are a wonderful mother.
I agree. I’m not trying to compare it to forgetting where you leave you glasses or forgetting to turn off the water in the front yard, but it really does happen. If it DIDN’T happen to regular people like me, there would be no need for this post! Thank you, Colleen.
It takes some serious guts to tell this story. I am constantly terrified that this could happen to me or my husband. It really scares the heck out of me. And with four kids and a hectic routine, it would be so easy for this to happen. I know that anything can happen in a split second. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you, Becky! I hope you never have to go through it!!
I’m always afraid I’m going to do this; especially after a book I just read recently. My van didn’t have working AC up until last week and only ONE Working window which means it was HOT in my van. I was always worried that the baby was going to overheat in the back seat because I couldn’t see her or check on her while driving.
I know you’re a great mom and I know that accidents happen to good people. I’m most definitely not judging.
The back AC went out in our van at one point last summer too, and I thought the SAME thing! He’s rear facing and he’s SO hot back there!
Lisa,
You are brave and wise to share this story. Even more important, you are a good mother.
Hugs to you and please pass along a hug to the Jettster for me.
Debbie
Thank you for sharing this Lisa! That must have been incredibly scary and I am so happy that Jett is okay!
So scary! Happy Jett is OK !
I appreciate you sharing your story. This is my worst nightmare. I am a crazy busy mom of 5 and often leave some or all of the kids behind with a sitter or my family. Sometimes I forget who is in the backseat. this is a great reminder to check, just to be sure.
Oh hugs. How scary and Thank GOD that you remembered and he was safe! Thank you for sharing your story. Yes. It happens. Again, no judgement coming from me as that scenario could have totally been me! <3
You are very brave to tell your story and I’m glad yours turned out to have a happy ending!! I’ve not done this myself, but when my oldest was a just a tiny baby twice my husband and I (once each) in the midst of visiting family and him being passed around then set in the car seat and covered with blankets did not realize or check to see that he was buckled in. The blankets kept it hidden, he was sleeping peacefully, and we just assumed he was strapped in. We were mortified when we got home and realized he wasn’t secured in the seat, and incredibly thankful we had not been accidents. In both of our cases after it happened we became vigilant on checking to see if he was strapped in. Now we have a 5 yr old and 1 yr old and I can tell you most time we get in the car I check both their restraints at least two times!!!
Gah. How scary. And a great reminder to not judge.
xoxoxo
Thank you for your honesty and sharing your story with us. I’m sorry it did happen to you! Maybe with the amount of stories we’re hearing nowadays, there will be more measures to stop it from happening.
No one can fathom ‘how’ until it happens to them .. I’m so happy for you baby was ok. No one should be judged by their accomplishments or their errors .. what we deem ‘impossible’ or unfathomable.. happens all the time, to caring parents, to uncaring parents.
So glad your outcome was positive! I agree that it can happen to anyone and thank you for sharing your story. You are brave to do so to help others.
I can imagine how easy it would be to forget. I can get home from work and remember very little of my drive home. It freaks me out every time. I double check the car just for my work stuff because I had managed to forget everything during that time.
Brian forgot about Grace once when she was a newborn but I was with him (he was running into the convenience store.) It happens.
Thanks for sharing and praise God your little guy is celebrating life at VBS recently!
I love you Lisa. I miss your face. You are an amazing mama and accidents happen. I remember that I used to think how could a kid die from window blinds…then we met Erin and everything changed and I know things just happen.
Oh my goodness. That is so incredibly scary! I’m so glad it ended the way it did and not in tragedy. Thank you for sharing your story… it had to be difficult to relive it!
It must have been very difficult to share this story. It’s important for all of us to remember to triple check because it really could happen to any of us. So grateful that everyone was okay.
I have seven kids. I have done stupid things before that scare me badly. I have had an eight year old fall asleep in the bathtub… By the grace of God, we’ve never had a real tragedy. I believe that so many of us are just one small mistake away from tragedy. I’m always so sorry for the ones who forget their kids in the hot car. This last one was not like the rest but most of them already have their punishment and do not need a judge to sentence them for their mistake. They will suffer the rest of their life as it is. Thanks for your post.
Gosh, I want to cry, I can feel the fear as I read your words. It truly can happen to anyone. I am so so grateful your child is alright, though <3 Thank you for sharing your story, it really is important.
Thank you for sharing, it’s so important for others to read. I keep seeing people say NEVER NEVER would I…but you just can’t say never.
People are so quick to judge when a tragedy like this strikes, but we are all human and make mistakes. I can guarantee that there is not one parent out there who has made a mistake when it comes to their child. Maybe it was something minor but we have all been there. I think instead of everyone running to crucify a mom or dad who makes a mistake we should come together and ask ourselves who we can make sure this never happens again.
I’m so utterly proud of you for sharing this story to the world especially after what just happened in the news. I actually have to remind myself to get our daughter out of the car when I go somewhere by myself with her because I have my oldest trained to get her out. Like you, I am a attached parent too.
I do believe this can happen to any parent especially when things are hectic and crazy. I haven’t done it yet, but I can see myself doing it with my absentminded self.
Wow, what a story. Am so glad it all ended well, too many times these things don’t
My kids were never quiet enough in the car to forget them. Seriously. It’s definitely something I think you can’t understand until it happens to you. Thankfully it never did.
I’m so glad it had a happy ending for you and I hope that you sharing your story helps someone instead of causing anyone to judge.
I think it’s amazing that you were willing to share this. I know you can’t possibly be the only one who has done this. There are so many more parents who are probably scared to admit it. Kudos to you for showing your humanity.
I’m glad this didn’t end in tragedy for you. I think that we all do the best we can as parents, and all of this blame and judgment going around just sucks. I’m glad that there is so much attention on this issue… I think it’s made me more aware, personally, and now every time I get out of the car, I think, “Where’s Andrew?” I know it could happen to me because of stories like yours, and I’m super-diligent as a result.
I once drove to work with my laptop sitting on top of my car. Never saw it again. Sometimes your brain just goes there without you.
It does. It really does.
I too left one of my children accidentally in the vehicle. I can empathize with every moment of your experience. Luckily it was a cool day and she was still fast asleep when I remembered, panic stricken. I don’t know that I have honestly shared my experience with anyone because of the “how could anyone forget” judgement that comes with the territory. As another attachment parent I can say- IT CAN HAPPEN TO ANYONE. Thank you for sharing as it helps to know that other responsible parents have made the same devistating mistake as I have. It has been years since the incident and my stomach still drops when I think of it.
You’re definitely right. It CAN happen to anyone. When you share your story with people, don’t let them make you think less of yourself. <3
I read your story and agree with all the other posts…..you are so very brave! And YES, it can happen to anyone! We all get busy and sidetracked and if we deter from our daily routine it IS so easy to forget that there is a quiet child in the backseat! I’m seeing comments from parents…..it has happened to me as a grandmother….and I’m a young grandmother!(not older and forgetful) Busy running my errands with a million things on my mind….was watching my grandson for the day….he was sound asleep in his car seat….I got to my location and jumped out of the car to run inside the store…was halfway across the parking lot when I remembered my little angel was still in the car!!!!!!!!! I FELT HORRIBLE!!!! He was perfectly fine, but still….I had forgot him!!!! Just want everyone to know….this happens to young parents who love their children more than anything in the world and are busy with life….and it happens to “seasoned” parents…aka grandparents!!!!
Thank you for your kind words. My goal is to let people know that it really does happen to ordinary people. Especially when you think it could never happen to you. <3